Caught by a particular thought

Sometimes it just happen that you want to turn off all the thoughts, that are running through your mind, right? But this isn’t that easy done as said. I catch myself in returning to some thoughts, that I usually want to ignore, all day long. Like, no I have more important things to do as always thinking about things that I can’t change yet or anymore. Why people are like that and how to get rid of this thought carousel? Right, it’s not easy. But a way of learning. You can control it by focusing on other things. This is what I should do now. Melt away negative thoughts and do something nice. 👌 
Cheers!  

Coming in hot

Okay, I actually force myself to write everyday. But, damn….time flies by pretty fast and I have the feeling, that I literally achieve nothing in my life. DAMN IT.

And I’m lazy atm.

I don’t know why, maybe it’s the heat, but I get up in the morning and wanna return to bed and sleep until I don’t feel that tired anymore. It’s hot over here. Very hot. At least,… I make myself think that it’s the heats fault, and not mine. Lol.

But the truth is, that most people have a lazy time in their lives, haven’t we? On some days, you feel so energetic, that you think you could reach anything imaginable and on some other days, you’re a huge shadow of yourself. Nothing more. I’m latter at the moment, but I keep thinking positive. I will get my energy back. I’m sure about that.

 

Cheers!

 

 

Learning by making mistakes

I have to admit, that I really make a bunch of mistakes: in writing, in art, in music. I don’t get how people work without mistakes, anyway.

As expected, you really learn a lot from your mistakes. You accept them, and get better and better. I have a great example: My first portfolio was a HUGE mess. I didn’t know what or how to set my pictures that good to make them look somehow appealing. I needed a portfolio the fastest possible way, as I had a presentation about my work. It was, well,….for me, as a perfectionist, just terrible. The people, who looked at my book, they were amazed. Don’t ask me why. I really hated this book. Everything about it. I just wanted to throw it away as soon as I returned home.

I, happily, ignored the fact that I’m gonna need a new portfolio for some month. However, a few weeks ago, I realised that it’s very important to finally made a new one. So I started. I created and did. I worked days over days, I deleted, I re-created, I cried, I laughed.

Yesterday it came to me in book form and guess what? I WAS SATISFIED. I can’t tell you how much. I saw my book and was happy. I looked into it, and the happiness was ongoing. I made something right. Yes. After hours of desperation, I finally did it. So, the moral of this story is: You totally need mistakes, or how do you think, you would get better elsewise?? Make mistakes, write wrong, play wrong, sing wrong, paint wrong. Every mistake just bring you closer to a whole. It will bring you to a feeling of “finally achieving something”. Sure, mistakes will make you cry, sometimes maybe even put shame on you. But take all those experiences and let them flow into your new work, into your better work.

Dalí once said: “No tengas miedo de la perfección, nunca la alcanzarás” or in English: “Have no fear of perfection – you’ll never reach it.” and I think that’s it. (Although, in my opinion, he’s perfect. But that’s a matter of opinion, anyway. Right?)

So, with this, I wish you a happy Friday. Create things, make art, play music, write stories. Just be aware of everything and accept mistakes. Improve yourself, everyday a little bit more and be happy about it then.

Cheers!

 

How to handle Egoistic neighbours?

There is this special neighbour of mine. She’s actually a very lovely and nice young woman. Nice, at that point, that she greets me. Lol.  I never even talked to her more than three words, but anyway, she seems very kind.

But I have a particular problem with her. She’s egoistic. How do I know that, although I never really talked to her? Well, it’s all about the way, she parks her car.

Yes. That’s it.

We have a, I just call it like that now, “communal bridge” in our neighbourhood. So, when it’s heavily raining and even hailing (which it does often atm), the people, who does not have a garage (like me!) can park their cars under that mentioned bridge. Nice idea, right? But this just doesn’t work, when stated lady parks her car across the whole thing. Isn’t that weird? If you would park your car just straight to the bridge wall, three cars would have space to stand below. But, no….Lady Egoist, she (who has a carport, by the way) takes all the space. So, I really wonder myself, why she is doing that? If anyone can tell me the answer, please go for it!

I will not give up, you know? The next time, I see the friendly Señorita, I will ask her if she may not be that egoistic. But in a nice way, of course, as I’m a peace loving human being.

 

Cheers!

Inspiration

What/who is responsible for your ideas?

In my case, it’s mostly music. I hear a song and then have a story in my inner eye. More like movie scenes, at first. Then, when I write, it could happen, that I listen to the same song over and over until my scene or chapter is finished.

Or, you go for a walk in the woods, the city or wherever, and then you see a perfect setting for a scene that would fit to your story ideas or already written chapters. I keep that scenery in my head while writing.

Last but not least: people. They are a huge source of inspiration! Either if it’s a famous person, a stranger you just saw on street, your friend or an invented one. It doesn’t really matter as long as you get plenty of ideas, when you think about that particular person. What will that person do in your story? What happened to them before? What will happen? I like to think about that.

 

Cheers!

 

The merits of walking a dog

Okay, it’s gorgeous to own a dog no matter what, but what I’ve learned today was:

People actually start talking to you and you get the opportunity to listen to many interesting stories.

Today, I walked my mother’s dog, a Border Collie, named “Holly” and I got to know some nice people, who all have one thing in common: The love for animals.

I learned about a woman, who was beaten by her parents, just because she saved dogs and gave them shelter in her home. Respect to that lady! I talked to complete strangers about how animals changed their live in a very positive way. Even I, who hates smalltalk, was kinda surprised, about how people act, when you have a dog with you. Basically, because the topic “animals” is interesting for me anway. For a short period of time, those people actually acted like they would know you since ages.

Walk with a dog is like a cloud of attention, that is hanging above your head. I’m not used to that, first of all, as I’m a cat owner: Two Thai cats, that lightening up my day, whenever I see them. But, it doesn’t really matter, which pet you have. A mouse, a rat, a snake, a cat, a cow, a pig,… whatever. Important is, that they make you happy and proud. They are like family.

So, the moral of this story is: Go and hug your pet as it’s a wonderful and precious being!

Cheers!

 

Tired, tired, tired…

I don’t really know, if it’s the weather, the season, or just myself, but…I’m tired, literally all day long. I wake up, and I’m tired…I have my third coffee, still, I’m sleepy. I could sleep for 12 hours, and I’m nevertheless weary.

I wonder, how many of you out there, feel the same? Where did that fatigue come from?

Anyway, as I’m tired, no matter what, I live with this until I feel awakened again.

 

Cheers!

Mother’s Day

It’s Mother’s Day over here and I just want to quickly appreciate my Mother and all the other gorgeous, strong women (and transgender women, of course), out there, who were fighting against inequality every day anew.

We live in a century, where women still get oppressed by the male world, still get less paid as a man, where women, still, fear to walk home alone. I ask myself, why we do this to our Mothers, Sisters, Girlfriends, Wives, Aunts, Friends?

Just, think about this day….Appreciate your Mother EVERY day, not only on Mother’s Day. Your mum (if you are lucky enough to have a good relationship to her, as I have to mine.) is one of the most important persons in your life. You need to esteem her more often. Just let her know, that you are thankful for all her devotion.

If this day, is not a day to celebrate, because you may not have a very good relationship to your mum, then think about another strong woman in your life. It doesn’t really matter if it’s your friend, the neighbour or your idol. Just value them.

Oh, and I also send my congrats to all the pet Mums out there!

May all you Mothers enjoy the day!

Cheers!

 

Smalltalk. No. Sorry.

Most people, they talk nonsense. Let’s be honest. At least, I think so, as I’m a person, who hates smalltalk.

I see no use in that, neither I’m interested in your latest car purchase, that your child is teething or what your dog just ate for lunch. Oh, and also I’m not interested in your work,…because I think, if you are only able to speak about this, then your life really needs some change. Anyway: People will always chatter about this and you (if you try to look at least a bit socialised) need to nod, agree or disagree.

I’m almost sure that many people will say, listen to smalltalk is not a big deal or they even like it and that’s okay as well. But not for me….So, what to do, when superficial boredom conversation try to take over your good, energetic mood?

Yes…returning to your own Dreamland, as it’s much more interesting, right? I may sound rude, and I don’t even care as well, but: I’d rather stay at home and write, dream and create than go out and talk to people. Except you are same minded…Then, I could talk to you for hours. I’m wondering if other people feel the same as I do?

 

Cheers and happy Friday!